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WTH?!

I’m sitting here on my couch shaking my head and wondering who the hell came up with this…..

Two OR more races NOT Hispanic OR Latino

OR

White NOT Hispanic OR Latino

Questions on paperwork for a job or whatever these days…There’s other options as well but because I identify as umm…well….NEITHER one, I’m left out in the cold with what the hell to pick! So, basically if I select the color of my skin which is white, I can’t be Hispanic because I’m too pale? OR if I select Hispanic which is half of my nationality, I can’t be white because according to the options it’s just not freaking possible to be BOTH! I’m highly aggravated by this.

To whomever created that bullshit above to be included on just about everything we fill out these days, job applications, rental applications, credit applications, hell, even a store card like from the grocery store, they ask what the hell you are. WHAT does it matter? I ask ya.

OK, so it does have something to do with the law that every company must employ an equal amount of….I get that and that’s all fine and well but my bitch is why can’t I be both HISPANIC and WHITE?! Because WHITE IS just the color of the skin…Hispanic is ethnicity. WHITE is a color. Brown is a color. Black is a color. So, how do those either ors make any sense?

I AM both…I am Hispanic AND get this…though the color of my SKIN IS white I’m NOT white. UGH…OK, so I am however, Russian/Polish AND Hispanic…so technically I am OTHER on those forms because I refuse to identify as white when it’s just a color!!! Someone somewhere needs to change that whole freaking mess. I’m confused and there’s NO confused option to select.

River of Tears is based on a series of true events

In 2009 I took a step that changed me for the better, though some would disagree I’m sure. Matters not. I did it. I published my very first book. That’s something I’d wanted to do since I was a little girl.

River of Tears has been released. The final edition. I’ve learned a lot since I released it in 2009. I’ve become a stronger writer. One who knows how to make you feel, even if you don’t want to. I take pride in that ability. While I continue to grow as a writer, a story-teller, my River is one that I’m super proud of.

It’s about something that isn’t often written about. Not to say it hasn’t been done, I mean there’s all sorts of stories that deal with adults who come up missing and end up dead-mostly due to money, ransom issues. Not many of them, if any, have to do with that adults family being the nappers. This story is based off of true events and real people. In fact, I know the people very well. What’s between the covers of that story is one hell of a powerful testimony given to you by the people who lived it.

Recently, the man who took a secondary role in the story, Brad is his name, died last month. His real name was Johnny. His part in the story is real. And before I sent the book to print, I revised it and added a memorial at the end of the story….Here’s the picture of the people this story is about: Caiden and Brad 1

Well, in part…the guy at the left is Caiden, and the story was inspired by the events in his real life. The guy on the right is Brad, Caiden’s best friend in the story, and in real life, Franks best friend, Johnny.

One friend is all we need to get from point A to Z. One friend who knows you better than you know yourself. One friend to make you laugh when you need to cry. One friend to hold you up when all you want to do is fall. One friend. That’s who Johnny was to and for Frank. And, yes, it was the other way as well. They were best friends. They had each others backs. Then they grew up and went their ways, but in the end, it’s the picture you see, they never stopped being best friends to the end.

River of Tears isn’t about Brad, but he plays a big part in it. River of Tears is about adult kidnapping. And when I say kidnapping I mean kidnapping. Physically. But have you thought about emotional kidnapping? Yeah, that does exist and that is what I lived through….So, to read this story is to read some of my life. What’s true and what’s not? Interesting, right?

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River of Tears is about a woman’s struggle as she searches for her missing husband, which leads to shocking revelations about him, his family, and the crime of adult kidnapping.

Abby meets Caiden when she is sixteen years old at nineteen they marry and after seven years of marriage it ends. She is left alone with her children and the bloody clothes Caiden was last seen in.

Knowing her husband isn’t dead, Abby begins a search that takes her from Arizona to Arkansas and lasts for a span of eight years.

More determined than ever to locate her husband, before he’s killed, Abby hires a private investigator who opens the doors to Caiden’s private world of hell.

Buy Link: River of Tears

Fiction has lost it’s fiction

1960101_747103341974769_722064445_nI came across this picture/ quote today on Facebook and I’ve been wanting to write a blog on this very thing for quite sometime. I just never have the time. Imagine that.

So, I’m taking the time now to do so.

According to Dictionary.com Fiction is defined as:

noun

1. the class of literature comprising works of imaginative narration, especially in prose form.
2. works of this class, as novels or short stories: detective fiction.
3. something feigned, invented, or imagined; a made-up story: We’ve all heard the fiction of her being in delicate health.
4. the act of feigning, inventing, or imagining.
5. an imaginary thing or event, postulated for the purposes of argument or explanation.
Here’s the link to see it yourself: http://dictionary.reference.com/browse/fiction
Where up there does it say anything about “reality” or “keeping it as close to reality as possible?” Not a single place. Fiction is imagination is over-drive with added excitement and thrills to help the reader “escape” the reality of life. IMO anyway…and it’s very closely related to how it’s defined.
For fun I looked up Non-fiction:
1. writing dealing with facts and events rather than imaginative narration
OH! Look at that…dealing with FACTS and events RATHER than IMAGINATIVE narration. (Rather than FICTION)
Which brings us to why I’ve been wanting to create this blog/post for a long time. OH, for about four years or so…Why?
I’ll say the biggest reason is because not only do I review FICTION books, but I write them too. And when I happen upon a review done by others and they say things along the lines of: “Well, that’s just not possible, that’s not how it works, that’s so not true, it took me out of the story because it’s not REALISTIC!”
Excuse me but WHAT?! Fiction stories are NOT real stories to start with. So, why in the name of hell would one want to have REALISM in a fictional story? If that’s the case, why not go pick up a NON-FICTION book and read that? Then one can get all the boring they want. OR learn all they want. OR experience all they want. Why do people who buy/borrow/steal a fiction story then piece by piece chop it up because it’s sooo unrealistic? See, that’s the point of a fictional story…its NOT meant to be realistic. It’s meant to take one away on a journey to a pretend land, place, with pretend people to see and read about their pretend lives. And it does NOT have to be labeled in the fictional section as “fantasy,” either. Not all fictional stories are fantasy. They are meant to resemble realistic situations but are not. And for those who can’t figure out the difference between fiction and non-fiction…um…perhaps close your eyes and try to allow your mind to relax and accept this for what it is.
When I see a review done on a fiction story and the reviewer/reader says something along the lines of: “It’s NOT realistic,” “It’s not the way it’s really done.” “Oh that character is so far out there I find it impossible to believe in him/her/it.” I want to scream.
I want so ask that person a few questions. So, since I can’t ask any single person in fear of setting said person off to then turn around and say: “OH, she’s a RANTING author. She’s behaving badly.”     (eye roll here)  As an author one can’t ask the reviewer/reader why they say such a thing in today’s world. They’ll develop a bad rap before you can snap your fingers. Don’t believe me? Just look up: Badly behaving authors…make sure you use the MM Genre when doing so. I totally understand why many of those labeled with the tag: Badly behaving author, are in that folder to start with. Many readers/reviewers don’t like just one thing, just one character, just one scene and voice their opinion, then others chime in to agree with the leader of the pack…(I guess they must find a place to fit in.)
One of my characters from the Lethal Obsession series is very flamboyant and very chatty and very loving, he’s someone I wouldn’t mind having in my life. He’s not afraid to speak his mind, he’s not ashamed of who he is, he’s proud to be gay, and loves his family dearly. He is who he is. Love him or leave him alone. But guess what…he’s NOT real… however, in saying that, there are men out in this big world who ARE just like him. So, when I was shown a review that someone wrote on that story and picked on Nicholas, I wanted to blow. How dare she say he’s fake and annoying and she could not stand  him due to his “ways” that she hated the story, and refused to finish the book. NEVER mind the fact that the story is incredibly deep on a level I don’t think she could get her mind to grab, never mind the fact that the story has more than ONE damn meaning. OH and lets not forget… When I write a story…the plot isn’t about sex. Can that story make it if I took out the sex scenes? YES. I’d rather not write a story with sex,  because that’s not the main focal point for my characters.  They find themselves in rather sticky situations and they don’t have time to stop what they’re doing to get off.  I like to say that or think that, we are only seeing a small part of these characters lives, and since I’m big on plot and characterization I’d rather spend that time writing for them showing what makes that part of their lives, or focusing on a special event in their lives that makes it story worthy. That’s my philosophy though.”He’s not realistic.” “He’s too gay.” “He’s like a kid.” I want to ask that individual how often s/he gets out to meet the people in the REAL world, not the so called fictional world created by a person who writes about pretend people in a pretend world, what in the name of hell is wrong with you? THERE are men just like him. Open your mind and eyes a bit. AND even IF there weren’t guess what? It’s a fictional character in a fictional story.
Soap operas- Fictional to the nth degree. Why are we so ready to get lost in a soap opera and take it for what it is, yet not able to take a fictional book the same way. There are characters that you love to hate and hate to love. There are story lines that really make no sense on any level and some that do.  Plot holes galore. I mean come on, when was the last time you saw one of them dressed in jeans with holes in them. OR living in a trailer in   a trailer park?  Better yet…do they even work? Sure, we “see” them in their offices, but you can bet they aren’t working. More often than not they’re either getting it on over the desk or fighting. That’s ALL they do while at work…and not all of them work. I suppose they stepped into money.
So, what’s the difference between the soap opera and a fictional story?
When I write a story, and I write deep angsty stuff that deals with “what could”‘ be happening, what probably has happened, what probably will happen, and what probably is happening, it’s still a fictional account of my characters and their fictional lives. Who gives anyone the right to say “It’s not really that way.” or “So unrealistic I had a hard time getting into it.” OR my least favorite of all time: “People aren’t like that.” I want to have a one on one with that person and ask “How do you know? It’s FICTION. It’s MADE up. It’s NOT meant to be real. It’s not a true story. It’s a story written by characters in my head that aren’t real to anyone but perhaps myself.”
Do you know how long research takes to write a fictional story? WE do have to put “realistic” parts that others probably don’t even thought to, just so that story is with the times and the characters are not using items that perhaps weren’t available to them at the time the story takes place. In writing Deserted I came up against this: Cell phones. I ended up cutting a scene that had dealt with one of the characters using his cell, but the story takes place in the 90’s. Have to keep them in order on a time line. And naturally I had something along the lines that the character had a touch screen. Then added a GPS feature. I read it over and realized that back then, we didn’t have touch screens as we do today and the GPS feature in the phones then are nothing like they are today. The scene wasn’t cut due to the phone, though. It was cut because it was in the first draft and no longer necessary by the second/third go over.
In that, fictional books do take some research so they don’t throw a reader out of the story over the small stuff. But when it comes to the characters and what’s going on during that time of their lives, take it for what it is. Allow yourself to believe. Not everything has to be real.
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Listen here!

Vicktor Alexander and Elsa Pendragon interviewed me! Talk about going OVER the line…

 

Michele L Montgomery is no stranger to adversity. Tonight on Write On the Edge, this wonder of an author talks candidly about how her marriage affected her writing and vice versa. She also shared what kind of candy bar she was, her favorite (and least words) for . . .intimate things, and what her naughtiest purchase was. This show is definitely not PG and promises to take you to the Edge with laughter and heart. Join us on WON Radio for Write On the Edge and the latest interview with Michele L Montgomery. Check it out here! http://www.blogtalkradio.com/writersonlinenetwork/2013/08/09/write-on-the-edge-w-michele-l-montgomery

Wanna win and hear me? Live? Read more!

I had the wonderful opportunity to be a guest on “Edge Blog Talk Radio,” where they walk a fine line between “edgier” and “trashy”. I was sent many questions and asked to pick twenty of them to chat about with the lovely Vicktor Alexander. Now, you’re sitting there and saying, ‘okay, so what.’

Well, let me tell you this. This is the first time I’m actually going live with someone else asking the questions. Exciting for me for sure and a wild ride!

Now, since I was sent seventy questions and chose twenty, there’s still some left over! So, I decided to answer a few here just for fun!

I’m also going to have a bit of fun with this. I’ll be releasing “Lethal Obsession: Deserted early fall, which actually means very soon. So, how about a free copy? A gift from me to you. I love giving gifts. And since I’m not rolling in the dough, the only thing I can give of me is a story I slaved over for quite a long time.

I keep blogs at four sites. Each site will have ONE winner that will get a FREE copy of Carl and Lucca’s story. The official blurb hasn’t been written yet but it’s the story before Caged.

Anyways, here we go with some of the questions I didn’t answer for Vic.

1-    Name a fictional character that is your ideal lover. I’m laughing here because my lover would have to be fictional as I have yet to meet that special one man who is as hot, as adventurous, as sweet, as alpha, as everything that most fictional characters are.

2-    What is your favorite and/or least favorite word for:  Penis?  Vagina?  Sex? I did a post last year on the many words writers use for a man’s penis. Here’s the link: Penis So I’ll say pretty much all of those would not make my favorite list. I don’t have a favorite list to be honest. A penis is a penis is a penis. A Vagina, same thing. And Sex… well I could go on and on with this one. ‘Doin’ the dirty,’ is my least favorite and my favorite is, ‘Fuck like monkey’s.’ Why? I have NO clue but I have to laugh when I hear it.

3-    Have you ever played out a fantasy in your story? Well no… However if I ever find that perfect man, who is like the fictional character from question one I would. I so would!

4-    How do you react to a bad review of your work? Honestly I don’t ever read reviews of my work. I did when I first released Tony and Ryan and a group of mean people from a social networking site attacked those poor characters and then me, then they attacked Caged from what I know, so since then I stopped reading them. A review is ONE person’s opinion about something they may or may not be comfortable with. In my case, in my stories, I am a dark writer, I do focus on angsty fiction and it can get harsh, but in that, there’s a deep story line with very engaging characters who would love for their readers to get to know, but just like in real life, not everyone loves everyone. So they won’t all love the characters or their situation. Just like I don’t like crackheads who beg, borrow, and steal to feed their nasty habit. It’s all good.

5-    Who would play you in the film of your life? Well, if it’s about me why can’t I play me? I know me best after all.

6-     Have you ever used a line from one of your books on someone? What was it? I do not. I never steal my character’s stuff.

7-    Describe your fantasy vacation. One guess….did you guess? Well if not, read Lethal Obsession and you’ll soon know!

8-    What is your guilty pleasure? So, if I don’t say chocolate and strawberries will you still love me? HA! I’m really a nerd at heart so in saying that I LOVE to do jigsaw puzzles and crafts when I can. I even LOVE to color!

9-    Who are the top five celebrities men and women that you would sleep with and why? Not a one of them. Why? Cuz they sleep with everyone! I don’t want their cooties!

10- What is something that people would be surprised to know about you? This one I’m not answering. Why? Because this is where the free book comes in. You ask me any question, (within reason) you’d like and keep it nice please and the best question asked wins the book!

So, for more of me….remember to go to: Write on the Edge to hear me answer Vic’s questions. WHEE!!! I will be there on the 9th of August. Or somewhere…

When will we learn?

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I must ask…Do you think it’s okay to bully/pick on people “below” you? OR I should say…people you THINK are below you? Especially, if the one doing the picking, is or considers itself someone “special?” I’m willing to bet you’ll say no.

Let me also ask, if you saw, read, heard one of your idols… I do hate that word, simply because we are all the same, just diverse with different genetic patterns…so let me replace that “idol” word with someone you admire for whatever reason…they, it, s/he could be a writer, an actor, a musician, hell, anyone famous or thinks they are famous, would you go along with that person if you caught it picking on, laughing at, bullying someone else just because they do it?

Lord help your soul if you do.

And if you do, if you’re that weak of a person, please I ask that you look up there to the right of the page and hit that X.

Bullying of any sort, from anyone in today’s society is something I will not tolerate, is something that none of us should tolerate. And if you do, because your so called idol does, shame on you. We are to stand against bullies and that means we stand against ALL bullies. And to think this so called public figure makes money off the very people it picks on. TSK

Public figures that bully, and I do not care if it’s in jest, should be taken down and thrown away. There is no excuse and there is no room for it. Everyone can be replaced.

 

Life and other things

I know this site is for my reviews for non-mm titles…and you can probably tell I haven’t done one yet. There really is a simple explanation for that, too.

I don’t have a spare moment to read anything outside of MM, simply because the Genre is gaining popularity like it’s no one’s business. More and more readers are becoming writers and published one’s at that, be it by self publishing, or by traditional e-publishers, they are being published. And I’m not lying when I say this, there are so many publishers and so many new releases, Top2Bottom can’t keep up. I have a good number of reviewers, and three steady ones. That leaves very little to no time to read outside of the MM genre.

And then there’s the tiny small fact that I’m also a writer, as is my partner on T2B who thankfully has taken care of the site and reviews, and emails to allow me time to “get” my head together.

Recently my personal life became a Lifetime Movie. I’ve been coping on and off with anxiety and panic, with a dash of depression for a tad bit too long and it caught up with me early in the year. I’ve been working hard on controlling it and working through it, but it’s not something that happens overnight. So, in dealing with that, more issues in my personal life arose and it set me back even more.

For now, I’ve stopped reading. I am getting River of Tears ready for its final edits and it will be published by Silver Steampress. Also, Lethal Obsession: Deserted will be under going edits when we get back from New Mexico, so that should be out early next year. As far as writing goes, I’m working on it. I have a YA short coming out with MLR Press in an anthology I put together with a group of other writers, that will be out early next year as well. My next project I’m almost half way into and I’m excited over it. I’m trying to work it around an odd job and my grandkids. Not an easy task at all.

So, though things are rough at the moment, I don’t expect it to be for long. Have to take things one day at a time. I don’t write under deadlines for a reason…my work is icky when I do. I have to fully feel it before I can apply it. Makes perfect sense to me.

Basically, don’t give up on me yet. I’m on my way back.